Perhaps autism is the reason I've never really noticed an inherent conflict between individuality, relationship, and community. Specifically because of autism, I notice the myriad of details related to each of these three and, in time, I've also learned how these details can be organized like the subtle shifts of color within a rainbow. When conflicts have occurred, it is more often because of objections to interconnection.
On one hand, in being myself I make a point of knowing my…Continue
Ok, so, this is not the first time this has happened to me, when I set out to do something and it doesn't work out like I expected. I whent down to the hospital like I said I was going to. I didn't think this was going to be as hard for me as it was. Anxiety I was feeling this morning. I wanted to find an excuse so I could have a legitimate reason not to go. But I did go, and I was successful. I made it to the social workers office. She was a nice person. I told her my name, I then disclosed…Continue
Tomorrow I will leave the safety and security of my yard, in search of a new doctor. I am going to use a coping skill I use to use 26 years ago, before I hooked up with my partner. My partner used to help me with everything. But now I find my self a drift all alone, the sure line is clearly in sight but not close enough to touch. I believe that the depression I am experiencing is do to the uncertainty and blindness that I must face in my search. Aspies and change do not mix well, I hate…Continue
Added by Joseph Monette on July 22, 2013 at 12:47am — No Comments
I have been seeing my doctor for ten or more year's he has been very successful in managing my autism/ADHD to the point of enabling me to seek and maintain normal employment. Yes it is part-time employment but none the less it is a normal job. That to me is an awesome display of truly knowing your craft/profession. Now he has retired, and I am alone again. Not only did I lose a good friend but an awesome co polite as well. As I try to navigate through life in search of a new doctor, I…Continue
I took a test for a training opportunity last week, and we are supposed to find out the results of the test by the 17th (today being the 15th). In my mind, that means the results could come at any time. If I pass this, I can go on to the next step of the selection process for this training opportunity. They say only 5 people will be chosen by the end. I'm estimating around 30-40 people took the initial testing. This has left me in limbo, because the whole thing has basically "hijacked"…Continue
I'm so excited I finally got into school! Okay it's not an actual college or anything but still. I am officially attending The Hadley School for the Blind. Now before anyone asks no I'm not blind, but without my glasses I'm considered legally blind. I have also had laser surgery on both of my eyes already because holes were forming in my retinas and they didn't want them to completely detach. This, and the fact that I'll have to have more laser surgery in the future, got me accepted into the…Continue
Dear GRASP community, I am back! I have missed not being able to connect with aspies lately, but I hope to get back into the swing of things and become, once again, active in posting and connecting with you.
The reason for my recent silence is that I acquired employment in a rather remote area of Alaska, many thousands of miles from where I had been living in New Mexico for nearly twenty years. The logistical challenges of relocating took all of my resources, both time…Continue
I am really new here. I found out about me about a year ago. I was 57 yo at the time. After all the shrinks, therapy and even being hospitalized once it sucks finding out this late in life. But really it is a blessing. I now know why I am so different from everyone. I always knew. When I was in grade school I just assumed my mind was controlled by aliens.
My brain races all of the time. It always has. It makes it hard to sleep so I deal with it. I live in Houston Texas and…Continue
Although I'm a person who is very selective about which movies I like to watch (mostly because of how much I remember them for days, months, and even years afterward), I also occasionally pull the DVDs out of storage and watch them again--in some cases as many as a dozen times or more by now. One of the mixed blessings of autism is being able to similarly review experiences of my life, recalling incidents with all of the detail and immediacy of when I first experienced them. The…Continue
I have certain very basic codes of behavior, which as an Aspie are probably more strict than those of NTs. One of these basic codes is a belief in "live and let live" -- and currently, I have two issues which are really grating on me in this domain. First, there is someone at work who has decided to focus his entire negative attention on me, i.e., he seems to be targeting me. Every time he can think of something negative to say or some way to scrutinize or criticize me, he will. He is…Continue
I am 57 years old as I write this, I was diagnosed only a couple of years ago with ADD as well as Aperger's/ASD. Nothing was surprising in the diagnosis, as for years I had been aware of large difference between myself and most other people. I have had knowledge of my differences since childhood. I seemed to be just out of phase with the rest of the world, that is on the outside looking in. I never seemed quite to fit in anywhere, I would come close sometimes but, never enough…Continue
This is Pam again,
I finally got the Voc Rehab person to return my calls as I started to call every few days asking for something to happen. I then got some vague paperwork and a "see you in July" letter. We didn't have an appointment in July so my next message was less friendly! She eventually called me back and told us that we needed to pick a Employment Specialist from a long list. This seemed pretty silly as I had never heard of employment specialists before and thought that…Continue
A few months ago at school we students were asked to write 6 word sentences that told a story or statement. Here are a few I came up with:
1. Toxic waste won't give you superpowers.
2. "TREMBLE BEFORE ME" said the kitten.
3. He's pretty fly, for a mosquito.
4. Breaking news: nothing exciting happened today.
Try to make a few of your own. (Note: Things like "a" or "I" count as words.)
Have fun! It's not like this is a 4 LETTER…Continue
Long before I ever knew I had Aspergers I had problems with Teleological thinking, since I was a child even. I see a cracked window on the second floor of my house and I assume the house is settling and a stress fracture developed. It would be out of character for me to assume that someone had broken it on purpose or even worse that the supernatural or a Deity was involved.
In my religious upbringing I understood the moral teachings given to me as rational and necessary for an…Continue
I recall growing up in southern Wisconsin that with rare exceptions, winter was a time for the sky to be gray and the world to be cold--for literally months; virtually forever, from the perspective of a child. When the spring did finally come, it seemed far too late, far too slow, and far too tentative. In finally knowing after fifty years of waiting, a name and the beginning of an explanation for the differences in brain functioning that I had noticed and described to others since early…Continue
This is Rebecca's mom; Pam. I am going to start posting on this blog about our new journey. Becca got her High School dipoloma on Friday and today is her first day officially in the Adult World. We just met with her Daily Living Specialists and they will be starting next week. We hope to fill 15 hours a week with some volunteering and fun activities for the summer. This fall Becca will also have 25 hours a week with a COTA to start working on moving to her own apartment and to support…Continue
Carol Burnett's mother once said that comedy equals tragedy plus time. I would agree. I recently posted a YouTube video (Gorus Goes Flying) where I describe my experience with airports and flying, having not flown in over a decade. At the time, I was very stressed and experienced near fatal (hyperbole!) anxiety; however, in the video I am able to bring a sense of humor to it all. I consider myself to be fairly high…Continue